I today saw a post about a dear friend who went on the news to talk about her rape and how it went to trial. But even though they had beyond enough reason to prove this asshat guilty they proved him not guilty. And since it happened till now it has always angered me. Now if I were to try and go to trial sure I don't have enough evidence. I do have one pretty big thing but I can't talk about it. I know it wouldn't hold in a trial especially since it's been 15 years and ones like hers aren't even making it. I'd LOVE justice to be served but I know that's something I'll never get.
And I want to put this out there. I did not say who my perp was in my first letter to get people to hate him, turn against him, etc. I did not do it to hurt him. I simply did it because A. that's my choice and B. I have every right in my journey and story to say as much or as little info as I want. I did not like it saying family member because I didn't want a certain person to be questioned. This is MY journey. This is MY story. From here on out I tell it how I want to and NO ONE will decide otherwise. If you do not like it feel free to leave and don't come back. I don't need negative people in my life. Every day is a daily battle to live with this horrible thing that has happened to me. Therapy is hard because I go back even a little and I trigger and spiral. I've bottled it for so long and pretended it did't happen that now it eats at me.
