Next chapter

A chapter in my life is coming to a close and a new one starts. I'm very sad and have mixed feelings about it. Here goes nothing.
John and I started dating in Sept 2007 and married April 2008. We got pregnant on our honeymoon with Tristan. Then had blakely may of 2011. These two are our world and we'll always agree on that. We have also agreed that getting a divorce is best for us.
For years..... ..i'm takling clear back to living in Florida. I have always found women to be attractive and what I wanted up date and be with. But because of how and where I was raised it was a big no no to like a woman. So I brushed it off. Until last June. There's a few things they help me decide that being with a woman is what I want. I never in a million years would choose these feelings. To break apart my family. But ive pushed them aside far too long and gave decided jo more. John is still a best friend and will always be in my life. Especially because of kids. But we've both agreed that its time to go into a different chapter of life. The kids always have been and always will be #1 and taken care of first. We aren't doing a messy divorce because of them. Everything will be civil and as least stressful as possible for them.
We told them a couple days ago. We wanted to wait till school was out so it wouldn't affect them there. We've been hiding this from them and most of you for a couple months because of that. But this summer is going to be a rough one. Tristan started bawling the second divorce came from John's mouth. And blakely laughed. I actually didn't expect anything different. That's how both of them cope.
If there is any questions please feel free to ask. We love all our family and friends who have stuck by us during this time in our lives.